Memories

There was the day we laughed at each other
When the rain caught us by surprise
But we embraced the warmth

There was a day we lounged around doing nothing
Talking about everything:
Things that annoyed us and dreams that felt possible for a minute

There was a moment our eyes met
Right through the room filled with others
We ran for each other, dancing out the joy of our reunion

There was a night we sat quietly in your car
Just content with each others company
But I knew then things were left unsaid

There was that time we drank too much
It was freeing and safe then
Everything seemed lighter and we had one another

There was the day you noticed I was not okay
You quietly talked around it as if I would crumble
But with those few words I understood you cared

There was the moment it all changed
You hurt me
Then I hurt you
We fell silent, becoming worse than strangers
Because I don't care for them, but you?
I wanted to talk to you
Still I couldn't because there was pain
And I wish I was a better person
But I hold on to retaliation like a shield against my heart
You were there and then you weren't
But I was left missing everything
And wishing it didn't have the bitter aftertaste

There was a moment I realized I would take it back
Have my do-over and try again
Be the better person
Be braver and face you
That was not me then
But now, I wish it had been

There is a moment I haven't lived yet
And that's one we will be us again.