2am thoughts

If I could stop the world right now
I’d do everything in my power to feel okay
I wouldn’t allow myself to mope on what I don’t have
Nor focus on what I fear I’ve always wanted
I would have no one to compare myself
I could be happy with being just me

Instead the world keeps turning
And everyone moving while I’m stuck on a lonely path
No power to change the world
No fierce words to set things on fire
No sense of where I fit in this mess

But if I could stop the world today
I would hold on to every soothing whisper from the wind
Warm every inch of my skin with the summer rain
Breathe in the scents from roots buried deep in the soil
Feel alive and not just exist in a mass of milestones

I am alive
I am infinite
I am enough

If I could stop the world right now,
I might believe it.

Papers

How can a piece of paper decide our presence?
Our identity wrapped up into a few letters
We strive for this paper,
It’s golden edges and glimmer in the sun
Our lives dedicated to obtaining those few flat words
Suddenly I am more than before
Now you respect me
Now you honor my knowledge
Before I was no one
Now I am everyone
With dignity and honor
It justifies our existence as more than a just thing
All this power in what can ash easily turn
And is one rain storm away from shredding
It is nothing

We are everything
Our minds full of intelligence unmet
Our souls built to withstand the hate
We are fireproof
We are solid and real
And no paper can give that to us
And no paper can take it away.