When life pummels you with lemons

I’m trying to understand why I feel so broken

Perhaps the foundation was never there

Or maybe I was building it up when doubt settled in 

Tumbling down the walls of strength

Leaving the raw bones of insecurity

There I am now with a sense of regret

Was there a point if it would not stand?

Or did it all have to come down so I can start again?

Now use the bricks instead of the stack of sticks

Then firmly re-attach the pieces

Through those covered cracks, sparkle scars firm in place.

To the friend I lost

A few lazy steps and we meet again

In the eyes of friends

Who keep the secret locked

Between the minor words we exchange

Broken and forever incomplete

A few fallen leaves and you’re back again

As encounters with fate resound in dry colors

And every gust of wind carries sighs

While I await the world to crumble

But it has denied me a response

A few short hours and the feeling is gone

Even with the taunting trees overlooking me

And the mute lake mimicking the clear skies

As silence mourns the loss of sounds

An outline of your vacancy

A few blank thoughts fill my lungs,

The moist air short of suffocating,

Formulates clouds that dream of the past

When showers were cooling and earth exhaled

Those quiet minutes engraved in my mind

A few minutes of silence then laughter

Through the storms and thick humid woods

And in every hand I hold from now on

As I walk forward with you nearby.