By the light of torches

I am so broken and don't know how to fix this
I look around and all I see is cracks and imperfections
Blemishes of hate and pain
Anger throbbing from deep seeded roots
There is beauty that grows from those wounds
Yet it's all too broken
Slipping from my hands and dispersing to the universe
Furious and exhausted I grip on to the edge of nothing
Considering the worth of feeling infinite
And broken no more.

lost in the moment

I found myself lost today
When I picked up my eyes up off the floor
And realized I had strayed from all the paths
Though I couldn't remember if there ever was one

I found myself wandering through doubts
Am I smart enough
Am I good enough
Am I brave enough
Or am I still just trapped unchanged

I found myself numb
I did not want to feel
Every torturous sound pinned against my ears
Every blotch of hate bruised across my skin

I found myself lost today
Not wanting to find a way
I stood frozen waiting for an answer
Or for my feet to carve out the ground.